The pictures on the left were taken February 2017. I weighed 11st, never did any exercise (always picking the car over walking) and never thought about the kind of food that I was eating. I was miserable and lacked any kind of self confidence. My wake up call was when me and Tom went camel riding in Gran Canaria and they had to put bags of sand on Tom’s side to balance us out. It hit home to me how unhappy I was with my weight and that I needed to do something about it.
I decided to join to Pure Gym and found myself a Personal Trainer. I knew the only way I could do this would be with a PT, I need someone to push me and keep me motivated. I took the left pictures just before I started with Jenny. She created me a food plan, home workouts, gym workouts and scheduled weekly, hour long sessions.
Since February I’ve had a break up, a girls holiday, numerous parties and nights out. I’ve had good days, I’ve had bad days and I spent 4 weeks in Australia. I never feel guilty about enjoying those holidays or nights out, I just know I’ll hit the gym the next day and work that little bit harder.
I wasn’t looking for a quick fix or a crash diet. It was important to me that the progress I made would be done by living a normal life, even if it meant taking a little longer to get there. People on my social media bang on about how they lost 8lbs in 2 weeks or 1st in a month and I kept thinking “why can’t that be me?!”. But I realised that I am always making progress, even though the numbers on the scale may go up and down, I’m fitter and healthier than I have ever been. I LOVE going to the gym, and I never thought I’d say that. I enjoy walking and being active and I like trying new foods. And that’s another thing, I enjoy food so much more than I ever did. If I’ve done a workout and get to come home and eat a plateful of shepherds pie or an Indian, I love it! I know I worked hard for it and it tastes so much better because of that.
As the months have gone on, Tom has introduced me to protein shakes, BCAA’s and my favourite snack.. protein wafers. My knowledge and understanding of my body, how it works and what works well for it is constantly growing. I follow BusyBee Carys and other fitness girls who post different workouts on their Instagram and try them out. It’s fun seeing different exercises, some I never would have thought of doing.
My life and job has changed which means my fitness regime has had to adapt. It may mean fewer sessions, going at different times of day or even just spending more time focusing on what I’m eating. But I’m adamant that this will become my lifestyle and not let it take over my life. If me and Tom want a movie night eating crisps and chocolate.. sign me up! So what me and the girls went out drinking all day and got McDonald’s for dinner.. it was the best McDonald’s I’ve ever had (seriously, I was dreaming about that chicken legend the following night).
The pictures on the right are me today, December 2017. Happy, healthy, confident as hell and weighing 9st 12. A lot of my family were worried with all my training I’d look “manly”, or that I may not look healthy at 9st. But here I am, fitting into more size 10 clothes than size 12 (winning) and most importantly I am happier and healthier than I have ever been, mentally and physically!
To clarify, I am not saying being a size 10 is the only way to be happy. For me it was about my confidence, I never used to feel comfortable in my own skin, I couldn’t laugh at myself and be silly because I was so self conscious. I tried meditation and attempted yoga but none of it felt natural to me. It’s so important to listen to your body and find what works best for you. For me, it happened to be working out. But for so many others it might be mindfulness and yoga. Try new things, play about with it and eventually you will find what you’re looking for.
I’ve only been training for 10 months.. that’s nothing in the grand scheme of things. But I know that fitness is what makes me happy when I’m having a bad day. And I plan to continue using it for that reason. This doesn’t have an end date, for me, this is my life from now on.